January had highs and lows. Grace starting exploring more and playing with anything she could find, the laundry basket, light sabers, baby dolls, action figures. She also puts everything into her mouth...toys, baby dolls, blinds! We tried getting her used to drinking from a sippy cup to make the transition easier when she turns one and starts drinking milk. One day while Emma was at ballet I took Derrick out for a bike ride and he insisted he show me how good he was at climbing trees. It wasn't a very tall tree, but he did a great job! :) The kids celebrated the 100th day of school. Emma begged me to do a special hair do for it. I tried to make a 100 in her hair. It wasn't my best work, but it made Emma happy.
The lows of January started when my dad was in ICU for almost 2 weeks. He developed an infection in his knees that turned into septic shock. It was an intense time. My brother and sister came from Washington and we all spent almost all day everyday at the hospital with my mom and dad. One night as I laid my head on my mom's shoulder and we just cried, I remember thinking it was always my mom doing the comforting and consoling to me. How was I supposed to do that for her? I suddenly felt like a child again and wanted my mom to tell me everything would be ok. But at the same time I knew I needed to do that for her. It will be a long uphill battle for my dad and there were times in January we didn't think he would make it through. But I am so grateful for the times of clarity he had and that he was able to joke and have conversations with all of us as a family.
The lows of January started when my dad was in ICU for almost 2 weeks. He developed an infection in his knees that turned into septic shock. It was an intense time. My brother and sister came from Washington and we all spent almost all day everyday at the hospital with my mom and dad. One night as I laid my head on my mom's shoulder and we just cried, I remember thinking it was always my mom doing the comforting and consoling to me. How was I supposed to do that for her? I suddenly felt like a child again and wanted my mom to tell me everything would be ok. But at the same time I knew I needed to do that for her. It will be a long uphill battle for my dad and there were times in January we didn't think he would make it through. But I am so grateful for the times of clarity he had and that he was able to joke and have conversations with all of us as a family.

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